Hello,
I haven't talked to you for a while, have I? Well, I guess my fault again. Having been attracted to illusions and imaginations and being so ambitious really kills. To tell you honestly, I don't want to come near you. I don't want to know that you ever exist as to where I am right now. I don't want to see you, personally or not. I don't even want to hear your annoying voice and laugh.
Can you blame me? I tried... I tried everything I could to avoid these things to happen but I guess this is how it ought to be. I tried to get a long with you, tried to talk to you normally, tried to understand you, tried to feel what you feel, try to hear your side, tried to be there when you need me and I TRIED to be your friend but I failed.
But honestly, I cannot blame you for everything that's happening right now. Even before you arrived, some things aren't going well to what I want them to be. Some things and feelings are already bad... but you made them worse.
I cannot deny that you have been good to me but you also cannot deny that I have been, too. That was before. Oh come on, tell me honestly. You were upset about what you knew, right? You didn't expect me to be like that at all. I didn't expect myself to like you anyway. Our blooming friendship suddenly ended without us noticing... or didn't we?
Everything is fine, actually. I am very much blissful about what I am experiencing right now. Happiness isn't enough to express what I feel, whenever I think about it. I cannot ask for more. Being in a state like that makes me feel that heaven really exists.
But then I saw you running cheerfully. I suddenly remembered all... everything.
What I was experiencing and feeling wasn't right. It really wasn't meant for me. It's for you. You, you and you.
That's why I don't want to see you. Because everytime I do, It reminds me that THESE aren't mine. These are yours. The laughter, happiness and attention are addressed to you. I remember that you are the one, not me. It's like being slapped while dreaming about winning in a lottery.
I don't want to be your friend. I hate to be your friend! Can't you understand? Why are you being so stupid! You don't know anything... Because if I stay as your friend, it would only mean that I betrayed you. And I cannot accept the fact that you have won against me, without me even letting everyone see what I really have.
Okay, you had it. This isn't the end.
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Checkmate - Friday, October 30, 2009 @ 4:26 PM
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Checkmate - Friday, October 30, 2009 @ 4:26 PM
Hello,
I haven't talked to you for a while, have I? Well, I guess my fault again. Having been attracted to illusions and imaginations and being so ambitious really kills. To tell you honestly, I don't want to come near you. I don't want to know that you ever exist as to where I am right now. I don't want to see you, personally or not. I don't even want to hear your annoying voice and laugh. Can you blame me? I tried... I tried everything I could to avoid these things to happen but I guess this is how it ought to be. I tried to get a long with you, tried to talk to you normally, tried to understand you, tried to feel what you feel, try to hear your side, tried to be there when you need me and I TRIED to be your friend but I failed. But honestly, I cannot blame you for everything that's happening right now. Even before you arrived, some things aren't going well to what I want them to be. Some things and feelings are already bad... but you made them worse. I cannot deny that you have been good to me but you also cannot deny that I have been, too. That was before. Oh come on, tell me honestly. You were upset about what you knew, right? You didn't expect me to be like that at all. I didn't expect myself to like you anyway. Our blooming friendship suddenly ended without us noticing... or didn't we? Everything is fine, actually. I am very much blissful about what I am experiencing right now. Happiness isn't enough to express what I feel, whenever I think about it. I cannot ask for more. Being in a state like that makes me feel that heaven really exists. But then I saw you running cheerfully. I suddenly remembered all... everything. What I was experiencing and feeling wasn't right. It really wasn't meant for me. It's for you. You, you and you. That's why I don't want to see you. Because everytime I do, It reminds me that THESE aren't mine. These are yours. The laughter, happiness and attention are addressed to you. I remember that you are the one, not me. It's like being slapped while dreaming about winning in a lottery. I don't want to be your friend. I hate to be your friend! Can't you understand? Why are you being so stupid! You don't know anything... Because if I stay as your friend, it would only mean that I betrayed you. And I cannot accept the fact that you have won against me, without me even letting everyone see what I really have. Okay, you had it. This isn't the end. |
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