It's late in the evening, pero I won't let this spare time of mine to be taken away na naman by nonsense things again. I need to TYPE this. XD Seriously, this matter really bothered me for a long time already but last week up to now has been really tough for me.

I KNEW THIS DAY WOULD COME.

I warned you, you and you.. Of course I'm aware that this would be possible but I didn't know that it would occur earlier or so. I thought I can evade every attacks , I thought I can prevent everything and I thought I was strong and brave enough to not let this happen. I assured myself.. but I think I lost.

Everyday.. Every hour.. Every minute and every second, my mind is occupied :( I cannot control myself from thinking and thinking about this. Before I sleep, when I eat, when I go online, when I go offline, when I take a bath, WHILE I'M ASLEEP, when I wake up every morning, when I take a bath, when I just sit down or lay down.. every moment of my life.

I DON'T WANT IT THIS WAY.

ayoko pa sabihin na talo na ako agad kasi hindi pa ako sigurado, pero I can feel it. ano ba magagawa ko, wala. I tried to do somethingS before, but I failed and now I have to face the consequences.

Oh well, ONE WEEK straight na ako nababagabag sa dreams ko. Ilang days na ako nababagabag even when I'm awake. ANO BA.

Magnewnew year na, gusto ko na sana maalis yung mga dapat maalis, mawala yung dapat mawala para makasagap ako ng positive vibes! :O

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